Heavy Fed: "Lookin fer Haters!"


(Haters don't HAVE to be racists!)

NAVIGATE:

What is in the past...we must accept...it can not be changed...it is ridiculous to fight over what has already happened.


We must instead...work TOGETHER...on what IS happening...and what WILL happen.


Lets not seek blame for HISTORY...but accept responsibility for the present...and plan for the future!


Heavy Fed

March 2008





Look for Heavy Fed's "Lookin fer Haters!" Comedy Troop in a comedy club near you, beginning this Fall!

The goal of this comedy troop is take a look at racism
through a comedic eye with on stage group/individual stand-up and Musical performances all aimed
at poking fun of racism... getting racists to laugh at themselves in the process... and teach others the fallacies of Hate.


Maybe you should think about joining Heavy Fed's Comedy/Music Troop!


If you are ready to devote you heart AND soul... to making a positive difference in this world... maybe we should talk!


Anti-Racism...not Anti-Racist,
Anti-Hate...not Anti-Hater!


I used to infiltrate hate groups for the fun of it...but always turned over any and all evidence to the FBI...I never worked for them in any official capacity...though I was offered the chance to several times...I was just not into following rules...I was just too much of a radical.

Heavy Fed
September 2007

Heavy Fed can be reached at: HeavyFed@yahoo.com

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Heavy Fed throughout his life worked "with" and not "for" many different Police agencies including but not limited to the US Marshals Service, the DEA, the FBI and various other local and state law enforcement agencies...
but he was never paid, he felt it was his duty.

He traveled around North and Central America as a self styled Lone Ranger after being released from the US Navy, getting involved and stopping crimes ranging from Murder to Petty Theft all across the land.
His travels took him to Alaska where he worked as a Commercial Fisherman, there he earned enough money to do what he wanted in his off time. In his off time, he fought crime...in his own way.

In 1997 after his father was diagnosed with Liver Cancer Heavy left Alaska for the last time to return home.

After Heavy's father died in November of 1998 he was incredibly upset with Shell Chemical who he blamed for his fathers death.
In the 1970's Heavy's father had worked in the Shell Refinery located in Deer Park, Texas. Shell provided vats of Benzene for their employees to wash their tools in each day before they went home to their families.
Heavy's father came home each day in his Benzene soaked clothing exposing the entire family to this toxic chemical.
Heavy's mother washed his father's work clothes every day and is now suffering from the extreme effects of Lupus.

Heavy carried with him this intense anger and soon began roaming around looking for something to take it out on.
It was 1999...Y2K was fast approaching...Heavy knew if something big was going to happen in Texas...Austin would be a prime target...and Heavy knew from experience where to look for extremists...after all he had spent quite a lot of time with his father attending "Gun Shows" and other functions where he had run into them before.
He was approached and recruited by a National Alliance member (a neo-nazi organization) early in 1999 at a Gun Show in Austin, Texas. Accidentally.
Heavy knew right from the start what he was getting into and relished at the opportunity to infiltrate this secret organization.
Initially Heavy did not share their racist beliefs but
soon, after months of consuming mass amounts of the National Alliance's disinformation and propaganda, Heavy playing racist for many months got so into it that he began espousing their racist ideologies as if they were his own.
Playing the part, as only Heavy Fed can do.
Heavy Fed explains, "Basically what I did was play a slightly ignorant but yet worldly white man who was not quite yet a racist, I let them nurture the hate in me...I watched hours upon hours of their propaganda videos...went to every meeting...volunteered to work gun shows recruiting...my own mother believed I had turned racist...in fact my whole family believed it...I had to make everyone believe it and this caused many fights...and this was a big stretch for me...I mean I had in fact spent most of the prior 5 years of my life living down in Mexico, Guatemala and El Salvador...then suddenly I'm a hate everyone but whites racist?...You can bet I should have won an Academy Award for that. I just went with it, I really let myself go, I believe I actually felt hate, in my heart...I mean I could taste it...and the taste made me sick...and the sickness I felt...made me even angrier...which made me an even better candidate for what was to come next.
In the end I had the National Alliance believing I was salivating to do something to "Save" the white race. You see, that's what they are looking for...all these Hate web sites...trolling for easily influenced people...young white suburban kids mostly...with contempt for everything and anyone around them...just looking for someone to take that hate out on...hating gives them purpose. Their race gives them reason and a sense of duty...a duty in their minds to save their dying race."


Then late in the summer of 1999, Heavy saw Eminem's video "Guilty Conscience" on MTV and was blown away by Eminem's artful use of prose.
He went out the very next day and bought his CD.
Heavy listened to that CD at least 20 times the first day and before long was buying other artist's CD's as well.
Never before did Heavy ever find anything that made his mind click the way rap music did.
He often found himself listening to his Rap music while participating in National Alliance functions keeping his rap CD's in Hate music cases.
Heavy began feeling himself pulled in the Rap direction.
He was planning on leaving the National Alliance, nothing was happening anyway, he had been hinting at "Looking to do some "Real" work for the Alliance" without any true bites, but just as Heavy was about to leave he was approached by another member and offered a job at a company that serviced air conditioners for large buildings.
Heavy went in the next day for an interview and was greeted by a man with a name right out of the Civil War.
This man invited Heavy into his office and began telling him how happy he was going to be having another White man working for him. He said he had Mexicans working for him that he was looking to replace with a few Alliance members if he could.
This man played "Cat and Mouse" with Heavy telling many racist jokes to assure himself that they were "On the same page."
Then things turned ominous as this man began talking about having the blueprints to many of the large buildings he serviced including some sort of FBI interrogation building.
He asked Heavy if he would be interested in taking a job where he could have acccess to this building for the National Alliance.
Heavy said "You bet" shaking on the inside.
The man joked some more and then started talking about Timothy McVeigh and what a good soldier he was. "You have an opportunity here Charles", the man said.
By this time a cold wave that began at the base of Heavy's spine had taken up residence on the back of his neck.
Heavy knew then that he no longer wanted to play racist but left agreeing to return to start work the following Monday.
Instead he went to the FBI.
Those members of the National Alliance had plans on blowing up that FBI building for Y2K...in fact the National Alliance had a multi-state bomb plot going on where they had plans to bomb at least two Federal buildings in at least two different states, all set to go off for Y2K to cause a major panic.
Heavy stopped them.

Heavy Fed----The reason Y2K was a non-event!

Rap music had taken him from the clutches of hate and delivered him into a world of love and music.






As human beings we have an innate desire to belong to a group...however...your inclusion into a group should never come at the expense or the suffering of another.

If you have to do something...or say something...that costs another...for you to be accepted...then you are selling yourself short...and the expense is far too great.


Illegal Immigration: Heavy Fed's view

Our Country spends billions upon billions fighting the immigration problem here in the United States every year...but we spend almost nothing on a solution.

Instead of building walls, hiring more Border agents and throwing our money away in other ways...we should be funding public works projects in Mexico...Lord knows our neighbor to the South needs their house brought up to code...and we could employ 100's of 1000's of people...if not millions with the amount of money we otherwise waste each year...in their own Country...where they would rather be.

Hispanic people are horribly discriminated against in this Country...probably more than any other ethnic group (besides maybe Muslims now)...and they are undeserving of this discrimination. They are wonderfully loving people...who put their families first. They have much more closely knit families than our own here in the United States.

I was welcomed with open arms everywhere I ever traveled in Mexico, Guatemala and El Salvador...I spent years down there...and never had a problem...beside riding my motorcycle over the side of a mountain trying to avoid a bus coming the other direction.

How many times have you seen a Hispanic person with a sign standing on a corner? I don't know about where you live...but here in Texas...they are few and far between. Most of the people with signs here are either Black or White...and mostly white. What does that tell you?









"We as people of the Earth need to come together... and see not our differences...but our similarities...as caring human beings... we should put down our weapons and open our arms to love one another...and rejoice at the paradise we create."

Heavy Fed
January 2007

"Hate dooms both the hated and the hater."
Heavy Fed 2006

I have not yet given up on my Country...I have not yet given up my freedom...and I will not relinquish my right or my sworn duty to oppose those who seek to destroy my Country or it's freedoms be they friend or foe, enemies foreign or domestic.

Those that are willing to fight with me are welcome, those opposed...are damned.

Heavy Fed
August 23 2007

Today I had an Epiphany of sorts...I was considering taking down the video I have now up on my MySpace page...www.MySpace.com/HeavyFed

...it is a video titled "How a Confederate flag should be treated".

I found this video on a Forum I posted often on...the Forum belongs to a "friend" of mine named Daryle Lamont Jenkins...a prominent anti-racist. I thought highly of this man...until I got to the end of this...for me... "Horrifying" video...and saw that the camera man was none other than...Daryle Lamont Jenkins himself.

At first glance...for most people...the video seems acceptable.

Black Americans...protesting the Confederate flag...by burning one.

Acceptable to most people...but not to all...and definitely not me.

I object to this video...primarily...not because I hold the Confederate flag in some high regard...it's not that I even care about the Confederacy.

It is because instantly I knew...any Confederate racist that saw this video...would be instantly angered...and a few...might find an innocent Black person to take it out on.

I felt hate...and anger within that crowd...that combination is dangerous...in any race.

Furthermore...I saw in the video that the NAACP was present at the flag burning.

What was the National Association for the Advancement of Colored People doing present...much less sporting a huge banner...condoning...the burning of a Confederate flag as if it were to advance colored people?

What positive thing comes of burning a flag? Unity? Maybe, but is that little bit of false unity...unity in anger...worth even one innocent Black person being beaten?

True unity comes from love...not hate.

I confronted Daryle Lamont Jenkins on his Forum about this video...I told him why I objected to the video...and then I asked him..."What positive thing came from burning that flag?".
I told him he did not owe me an answer...but that I would appreciate one.

I never received an answer. I was hurt. Not only from his refusal to answer...but also from the lack of support I got from most people in the Forum. People I had come to consider friends. People I thought were anti-hate. They were not...they were anti-RACIST!

It was just as I was thinking that...that I realized...I had been calling myself an anti-racist. Telling everyone who asked...and many who did not..."I am an anti-racist"...when in fact...I am not.

Yes...you heard it here first. Heavy Fed...is NOT an ANTI-RACIST!

I am against racism...but I am not anti-racist.

Anti-racist implies that you are against people...I am not against anybody.

I am pro-people...pro-humanist...PRO-HUMANIST!

Heavy Fed...is a pro-humanist.

It is this reason I realized why I never quite fit...never quite got along with anti-racists...I was always hurt by the hate anti-racists display when fighting hate. Hate was born of hate...and can not be defeated by it...hate can only be defeated by love.
Some of my anti-racist friends have begun falling away since I posted the video on my page.

In fact I hardly talk at all with anti-racists I consider friends anymore...just a few have stuck with me. I spend most of my time...as I have the whole last entire year...fighting hate on the Internet.

It might sound funny at first...fighting hate on the Internet...but that is the number one way hate...is spread unrestricted around the world.

I spend most of my time...dis-swaying young people from a life of hate...on MySpace. I go into hate groups like KKK...and White Power...found easily on MySpace...and I fight hate on a personal one on one level. I counsel youth from all over the world...and have met with some success. That is why I do it with such passion...and will continue doing so...for as long as I am successful...and then some...and then some more.

To all of my friends...in the real world...in the cyber world...in the Anti-racist world(please consider what I have said)...and in the racist world (Yes...Heavy Fed has friends who are racist...but I am trying to change them)...consider this an apology...if I have seemed distant in the last month...and have seemed to pull back from you...this is the reason:

I am not...nor will I continue to call myself an Anti-Racist...but from this day forward...

I AM A PRO-HUMANIST!

Peace,
Heavy Fed
www.HeavyFed.com

Heavy Fed
May 2007


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Heavy in the Navy.
The Government actually enlisted him as Hispanic at the age of 17.



I have learned that my perspective is special
and that no one else sees the world quite the way I do.

I have learned that everyone else's opinion
is not necessarily true.

I have seen the world in the hands of the sane
grow poisoned and ill.

I know that now is the time for action
not to sit and be still.

I feel a great movement rising up
deep from within my soul.

Where once I harbored hate,
now love is my only goal.

Heavy Fed Up!

My name is Heavy Fed and I'm heavy fed up
with you f**king politicians who are damn well corrupt
You promise us solutions to the toxic pollution's
so the country elects you but the money infects you
Well hey you got paid and you probly got laid
My name is Heavy Fed and you better be afraid
Cause I'm heavy... fed... up, I'm hea..vy f**king fed up!
Got polluter's all around and their killing people too
and you f**king politicians don't care what they do.
Killed my daddy with the cancer of the liver
got my momma so sick that she shake and shiver
never feel better with the meds the doctor give her
My name is Heavy Fed I got lead to deliver.
Better start running before you hear my first shot
cause all your names are on the bullets that I got.
Like Shell and Exxon and Texaco too.
Phillips and Goodyear you're all overdue
Your all going down for the toxins that you spew
and least we not forget the politicians too
Cause I'm heavy... fed... up, I'm hea..vy f**king fed up
Before I was born my daddy worked the plants
but some of that sh*t musta got up in his pants
cause I'm f**ked in the head and I only wanna dance
on the heads of the mutha's that are running toxic plants.
Pasadena sleeps but polluter's never will
steady spreadin cancer don't care who they kill.
They cut down all the trees to build a metal beast
take nature to her knees and send the money east.
I'm heavy... fed... up, I'm hea..vy f**king fed up!
I was riding up to Houston on Two twenty five
my eyes started burning and I couldn't even drive
Saw a red and yellow sign with a big as* shell
I knew right then it was the cause of the smell.
I pulled on over to the shoulder of the road
The warning sirens were blarin out their warning siren code
I didn't think I had another second to spare
I couldn't see no more and I couldn't breathe the air
but luckily for me everything was OK
It was just a siren test and it always smells that way!




A poem from my childhood

A tear in the eye of an unborn child
unseen and the cry unheard
A life cut short by a mothers needs
but what of the needs of the unborn child
A need to live, a need to love
and be loved
A tear in the eye of an unborn child.

Yang of Hate

You must have passion to hate...and passion is but a hug away from love.

Heavy Fed
May 2007


"God works in mysterious ways...and so does Heavy!"

Heavy Fed: Heavy Fed Up!
This is my first attempt at singing a bluesy version of this song...I recorded it...not too proud of it...especially the ending...thought it was funny...thought I'd share.

Heavy

See the Rap and Country versions of this song as well as others on YouTube by clicking here!


Looking for haters

I'm looking for haters all around the world
Gonna see me coming got my flag unfurled
Got my .45 cals with their handles pearled
Gonna pop some haters all around the world

I'm loadin up my bullets with love instead of lead
Love instead of lead, love instead of lead
I'm loadin up my bullets with love instead of lead
Gonna put a little bit O love in yo head.

Racist traitors are human being haters
With your lies you try to separate us
I'm gonna capitalize on my flow to motivate us
And nothing but your eyes will be flying outa craters

So when you hear me thump, better let me in
Open up your heart and purge yourself of sin
Got the devil on the run cause he's the kingpin
Gonna love all his haters and wash away his grin.

I'm loadin up my bullets with love instead of lead
Love instead of lead, love instead of lead
I'm loadin up my bullets with love instead of lead
Gonna put a little bit O love in yo head.

Black haters, Brown haters, Oriental Clown haters
Haters all around and haters in my town
Got haters in my face, to hate is a disgrace
Look left and right aint no haters in this place

Got love in my plans
Got love for my fans
Got love for my friends
It's a love that never ends.


I'm loadin up my bullets with love instead of lead
Love instead of lead, love instead of lead
I'm loadin up my bullets with love instead of lead
Gonna put a little bit O love in yo head.




 The National Socialist Rally held here in Austin Saturday November 11th on the South steps of the Capitol was a complete joke. Only 15 or so Nazis showed up...late I might add...they were easily out shouted by the 200 plus Anti-Nazis that were there to oppose them.
There were easily more little old ladies there than Nazis, I stood next to one the entire Rally as she held her Israeli flag high without fail, it never went down even as the police pressed us back with their shields she maintained her place beside me.
One Nazi recognized me and goaded me thanking me for wearing my number 88 jersey, I would have been arrested right there if I had someone to drive my car home, I don't mind going to jail but having your car impounded gets expensive really quick around here.

I arrived about an hour prior to the Rally and lucked into the very first parking spot before the Capitol on Congress Ave. Rockstar parking!
I had envisioned getting that very spot for an entire week...my first pass it was already taken but after making the block it was free when I returned.
As soon as I drove up people started taking pictures...I felt a little overwhelmed at first and hesitated getting out and setting up my signs but as soon as I did everything went smoothly...I posed for a few pictures and chatted with various people.
You could feel the tension in the air and could tell something was going on as all of the police there suddenly were active. Then off in the distance you could hear people shouting...barely you could make out "Nazis go home, Nazis go home!".
I was never so proud to see Anti-Racist Action en mass walking down the middle of the street, there were many more than I had expected. They paraded up to the entrance to the Capitol and filed singly through security at the gates while several barkers maintained their chant with megaphones.

I grabbed one of my signs and headed across the street. I managed (very politely I might add for being such a big dude) to work my way to the front of the protesters and actually moved in front of the police line with my camera to get a few shots of the crowd as we waited for the Nazis to arrive.

Well after 3pm, the planned rally time...there was a commotion to the East of the Capitol...into view walked the most rag tag group of clownlike Nazis I had ever seen. Surely Hitler even would have been ashamed. This was definitely the most disorganized group of haters ever, they did not seem to have a plan of action at all. Most of them just stood around looking stupid giving the periodic siege heil hand salute and from time to time taunted the crowd to "Come get some". Believe me there was a minute there I thought I was going "To get me some".

After about an hour and a half of standing there "Doing absolutely nothing" the Nazis suddenly moved and lined up "Nut to Butt", they looked as if they were about to walk around the Capitol when the crowd shifted suddenly East to counter them. The police, for the Nazis safety, lead them instead through the Capitol building itself while carrying their flags.
I shouted "No...not through OUR Capitol" and the crowd roared with anger in agreement.
There was little time to react as there were so few Nazis they were quickly inside the Capitol to safety.
Like that...it was over.

Like I said, I was very disappointed with the showing of Nazis and was bewildered by their seemingly "Lack of a plan". I also was not the only one heard questioning "Is that guy even white?" It looked to me as if the National Socialist Movement had been recruiting South of the border.

Definitely not a "Higher Class" of Nazis...if there is such a thing!

Video of the Nazi Rally, they enter the Capitol towards the end.

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HCvNleMZIak&eurl=


PEACE,
Heavy Fed
www.HeavyFed.com
myspace.com/heavyfed





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